Thursday, April 30, 2009

DANG!

I know i haven't been blogging but i promise to blog tmrw okay!(:
I am going to 'Play' with the girls and flav tonight!
Its definitely gonna be very fun! :D

Sunday, April 26, 2009

You WILL feel something after reading this:
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions... She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy.Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time.. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind... I walked upstairs.Dew opened the door and I said to her,Sorry, Dew, I do not want the divorce anymore.She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head.Sorry, Dew, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up the stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead. I know how her heart could not bear to hear my last words now. I still carried her, my last one...this time with my wretched heart.The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank, etc. All these create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.
If you do, you just might save a marriage.
I went to nerd with dearest OngHwayMin yesterday. (:
We went to nationaly library and i think that place is super condusive!
Its easily the best library to study in ity! HAHA!
I sound like i am advertising for national library. (><)
But its really a nice place to study in luh.
Go there to study more often okay OHM! :D

After studying, we went for our very late dinner and i still cannot chew because of my teeth. =(
We went to 'explore' around and found some really nice places. lol!
We even got ourselves lost but found our way back eventually. (:
Great day out! :D
This is the flower which i planted like a million years ago. And yesterday it finally blossomed! :D
So beautiful right?! (:

As much as i love you Mr Sun, CAN YOU PLEASE STAY AT HOME FOR JUST ONE DAY?!

Ohmygod! The weather has been effing hot these few days!
Everytime i step out of the toilet after my shower, i will perspire immediately!
And yes! I mean IMMEDIATELY!
Every night, i will perspire like mad even when i am sleeping in an air-con room.
Okaylah, thats abit exaggerating.. (><)
BUT! The weather is really killing meeee!
Why is it so hot?! What happened to our beloved ozone layer?!
Ohmygod! I want snow in singapore! lol!
Okay, please ignore me.
Hot weather makes people go mad sometimes.

Anyhows, today hwaymin and me really did study!(:
Studying with her is so productive! HAHA!

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Went to catch 'Handsome suit' with jocelyn yesterday.
We were laughing throughout the whole show! Its super funny. lol!
I wish i own the handsome suit! (><)
Okay, i am heading out now to meet hwaymin!(:
We are like finally going to study. HAHA!
ciaos!

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

We had our 2.4km run in school today. I think i passed lah. lol!
After the run, some of us went for dinner together.
I really ate ALOT today! =(
I suddenly ran out of word to type. lol!

30mins later...

Okay, back!(:
These few weeks are really busy weeks. Actually, this year is a really busy year. lol!
Lessons end very late everyday. We dont even have time for other things.
I dont have time to read my books!! =(

Okay, linghui ask me to post A picture of us if not my blog will be too wordy (which i agree). lol! Thats all, byebye! :D

Monday, April 20, 2009

MYE is so far away, not!

Although its very last minute, i am going to start on my revision now!
Okay, i know. Finally! (><)
I dont want to fail my MYEs!
I still got many many things to catch up but there is time restrain!
Those who haven't start on their revision, like me, just tell yourself you can do it and start now!
WE CAN DO IT! :D

UPDATE!(:
I forgot to say that the M'sia trip was fun! :D
Although the things there are not really cheap and although i didn't get to buy as many things as i expected, I totally enjoyed myself!(:
Anda, i had breakfast at mac with linghui&tania on monday before school.
I overslept! (><)
When i reached there i merely forced all the food down my throat and felt like vomiting after that. lol!
I am sorry for always being late and thank you for always having to buy my breakfast for me.(:

Friday, April 17, 2009

School this week isn't good. lol!
I think i failed all the tests that i took.
This week is not an eventful week so, yeap! Nothing to blog about. (:
Today all of us did not attend F&N consul.
HAHA! This is really the best friday ever please!
Its like since school start, we'd never enjoyed our fridays because of APs and F&n. (-.-)
But today! Just for today! We have nothing after school! :D
Erm.. Except that math mock exam took up some of our time. lol!
So after school, linghui, brian and me went to ljs for lunch.
We slacked for damn long den i went to meet phy! (:
Bought nothing today except for a pen that cost me 10bucks!

I think i may be going to malaysia for a shopping trip this weekend!
YAYEEEE! :D

We did not take any pictures, so please endure with this wordy post. (:

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Nightmare!

Ohmygod! I've got 3 tests tmrw but i am totally not in the mood to study!!
Oh, and i dreamt of something really funny and scary last night. (><)

*****EDITED*****

I made a mistake, there are only two tests tmrw! (x
And about my dream, it was a really lame one but i want to talk about it here!! lol!
It is complete lame-ness from here onwards.........(:
I dreamt that i went swimming with a group of people, dont know who.
Den suddenly, there was this drastic change of scenes and i was in the school's toilet alone.
I was about to bathe. No idea why i bathed in the school's toilet.
But it was a dream right? lol!
When i was about to walk into the cubicle, i saw this little boy hiding under the toilet's basin.
In my dream, this boy was a ghost.
Den idk why i am not scared of the boy at all. lol!
I continued to prepare my stuffs when suddenly, the boy walk towards me!
I was damn scared even though it was just a dream. The fear was like so real.
The funny part is, the little boy walked to me just to pass me a dettol soap. (-.-)
Den there was another ghost, this time a girl, also walked to me and pass me the same soap.
Den followed by another ghost. lol!
In my dream, i was screaming at the top of my voice until my mother came in to the toilet.
I forgot what happened here but i remembered that the school was filled with people.
All my primary school friends were there.
Weird, i know!
After i saw all my primary school friends, my alarm rang. (-.-)
HAHAHA!! Okay, i know its lame.

Sunday, April 12, 2009

I am an Outlandish Outlander! :D

I spent my long weekend studying!
Yes, plain studying! :D
Except for some distractions here and there. lol!
Today, i finally stepped out of my house. (Not that i didn't leave my house for the past two days lah.)
I met Jocelyn in Tpy in the afternoon and i was so afraid that i will oversleep. (><)
Not surprisingly, i board the bus from the wrong direction again. lol!
This always happens when i want to go to Tpy.
Okay, apart from that, today was much better than yesterday. (:
At least i learnt some things.
Yesterday and friday was like mere writting of notes and nothing went into my brain.
And b.t.w, monday sucks!(:

Saturday, April 11, 2009

All I Ever Wanted.

Yesterday was super not productive!
F&N is really brain draining! I have no more brain cells left for other things. =(
I've been doing notes for F&N since yesterday and i am still doing the notes now.
I learnt nothing, maybe not yet? lol!
I had flu for the whole of yesterday and tissuepapers and mentos spearmint were my bestfriend yesterday. (:
When you are seating by your table like a retard and trying to force all the knowledge into your head, you will need mentos spearmint! lol!
Not neccessary mentos lah. (><)
I rebonded my hair yesterday! :D
Like finally.
My hair is flat to the extreme now, but i like it. (:
I am minus-ing things from my 'wants' list alrdy. HAHA!
THANKS MUMMY! :D
I am sorry for spending so much. (><)

p/s My brother is super lame TTM! (:

Friday, April 10, 2009

Liberty!

Pretty Linghui! :D
Stop saying that your bangs is ugly! IT.IS.NOT.UGLY! (><)
Math test was ohmygodly-suckish!
I sacrificed my tv-time and bedtime to revise on vectors until i finally know this 'stranger'.
I really thought i can finally pass the very first math test for this year!
BUT! I didn't have enough time to finish the paper. (-.-)
Its always like this! Either i have to much time left because i dont know how to do most of the questions, or i have not enought time because i have too much to do.
This is just another flunked test.
What if this happens during MYE?!
Ohmygod! I need time!!

Okay. Anyways, i skipped chem pract and went to yishun with linghui&brian to watch Unborn. Nice show, quite scary.(:
Crapped with phy at night while jogging? strolling? HAHA! Idk what we were doing. (><)
Back to revision now, BYE! :D
XOXO

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Eclipse

I am having tuition later.
Nobody knows how much i dread having tuition!
I really wish i can master vectors by today because I AM HAVING A TEST TMRW!
The feeling is damn suckish, really.
When you know nothing about the topic and you have to take a test on that topic tmrw.
Ohmygosh! I dont want to fail the test tmrw! =(
I promise to pay attention to my tuition teacher later and not nodd away when she is teaching me. (><)
I havent even bathe yet!
Urgh! I just wish i can fall into a deep deep sleep and not wake up forever.
Maybe not forever, i will wake up when i want to. :D

Okay, bye!(:

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Grandiose.

Its time to update this almost forgotten blog.(:
I shall start from CM's bbq. lol! Met linghui&co in hub den went for last minute present hunting. We ended up with a perfume. After buying the present, we met up with more people and bused down to east coast. The bus journey was super long and den we have to walk more than a zillion steps to the bbq pit. blahblahblah... Den we has some food and went home at 9plus(?).
HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCE CM! :D
B.t.w, it was an early celebration on sunday. lol!
School on Monday was alright. I think i did badly for my english oral. =(
Today, there is speech writting test and i think i did badly also. =(
Double UNhappiness!
There is math test this thursday, F&N test next week and CH test next next week.
How come got so many test want?!?!
MYE is really really very very near alrdy!!! =(
Double, triple, million, billion, zillion UNhappiness! lol!

p/s Uncanny happenings. (><)

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Far Away.

How long have i not been updating?
3days only! lol! Better than cheryl.(:

I am heading out to meet Linghui now and we are going to ChiaMeng's early birthday celebration later. So i will update (maybe with pictures), when i am back. :D

Till then, XOXO

Thursday, April 2, 2009

My class ROCKS! :D

Okay, so class drama is finally over. lol! I kind of miss the times when we stay in school till the last bell goes to do the props. But since it over, we shall all concentrate on our studies. =(
Anyways, class drama today was a success! :D Everyone did really well and though we are not the best, we enjoyed the process.
We went to KFC for liner (lunch cum dinner, lol!) and here i am blogging. I am having tuition later! I feel like falling asleep alrdy lor! (><)